seasonsofincarnadine:

rubywhiterabbit:

My little brother got into outer space and stuff so my step-mom bought him a place mat with all the planets on it. When I first saw it, I was upset, because it was newer and so Pluto wasn’t labeled. I was about to say something when I noticed something…

Pluto is there.

The artist remembered Pluto.

Guys…

The artist drew Pluto crying.

Saddest picture ever. :’(

Don’t mind me.. Just venting..

I don’t know what lesson God is trying to teach me. I know what He’s trying to tell him, but I’m not sure about me.. Maybe I shouldn’t take things for granted. Maybe I should find a better balance in my life. But I’ve definitely learned that when you really love someone, don’t let them walk away without you telling them how you really feel. I wish I would have said exactly what was on my mind. But the part of me that was pushing to talk was quickly silenced by the part of me that was just so annoyed and over the whole situation. I was just so irritated. Now look.. Ugh.. I should have just told him to stay. I should have just asked him to spend the day with me. I should have spoken up. None of this would have happened if I had’ve just said something. Anything to stall for a minute. Anything that could just spark that idea in his mind like, “maybe I should just stay home with her today.” But now it’s too late. There’s no use in dwelling on the past. I just have to take it day by day and see how this goes. He just needs to know that I love him, and everything is going to be okay. I just hope this situation gets better before it gets worse. I’m praying that it gets better before it gets worse.

I’m just numb. My stomach has been in knots for days, and today it just untied itself and disappeared.. Along with the rest of my organs, appareantly. I’m just at a loss for words. I don’t know what to do, or think, or say.. I just know that sleeping in our bed alone kills me inside. More than you’ll ever know.. I feel like someone has cut me in half and locked one half away and just left the other to run around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to figure out what to do. Ugh. And EVERYTHING in this room smells like you. This pillows, the closet, hell.. I’ll bet the carpet smells like you. But the closet for sure. I was going to the bathroom and I walked passed your jackets and caught a wiff of your cologne… I broke down. That was my first time crying since all of this started. I’m hoping that it will be the last time though. It was pretty hysterical. I just need to sit down and breathe. But I’ll see you tomorrow. I don’t know how, but I will.. I promise. I’m so lost babe. I feel so pethetic, but at the same time, this is A LOT of shit to take in all at once. And now I have to pack up this whole house by myself, and just rely on the movers to help move us into our new place.. I need you here to help me out. I need you here to kiss me on the forehead when I get frustrated, or kiss me on my shoulder while we sleep. You thought I never felt those, huh? Every night.. I actually kinda look forward to them every night. Even when I’m kinda mad at you, I still wait to feel that moment of warmth on the back of my shoulder. Almost in the same spot every time. I miss how you hold my hand while we drive. I miss watching you jam out to Kid Cudi, or whatever else you’ve got blasting at the moment. I miss being in the shower and just hearing the door open and then next thing I know, you’re behind me putting soap on your wash cloth. It’s so funny. At first I used to think that you just always wanted shower sex or something, and then I realized that you genuinely just wanted to take a shower. Lol. I can’t do this alone babe. I need you to hurry and come home. It’s so quiet here. I finally understand the phrase, “sometimes silence can be so loud.” It’s screaming at me.. Ugh.. I’m gonna go to bed.. I love you. So much. So so much.

-Natalia.